I know so many people are tired of the questions and discussions around brands. But as I get more into the marketing side of my business I can see how important it is to identify what you stand for. What is important to me? I read an article on branding that said to list three themes that I feel my business is about. I came up with Video Storytelling, Celebrations & Purpose. Not sure if purpose is a theme but it’s so important to me in everything I do. To have a purpose, a reason why you do what you do and what gets me up in the morning.
Had to call it 2.0 since I know I did my comeback over a year ago. LOL I was around just not here. Took a little time to do some deeper & different learning and so I was excited to get back to biz. I’m going to keep this much simpler. Like I do on my other blog. I’ll find some cool articles on weddings and other celebration ideas. And tell some stories of the people I meet in just daily life dealings.
It’s Sunday and I’m laying low working on a video for The Hewitt’s School Graduation lunch. It’s been fun working with all the photos and videos of these young girls starting from kindergarten up to 8th grade. A little bit of time traveling. This will be such a cool gift to have for years to come.
I can’t sleep and instead of hiding my thoughts in my journal I want to put them down here so I have to see them.
I want tomorrow to be here now. In a way I feel like a little kid that is looking forward to something at school the next day. But nothing is happening tomorrow for me to feel excited about. Except maybe a chance to take some control of the disarray I’m feeling in my life. I want to fix it now.
My impatience has wrapped itself around so many parts of my life. I’m looking for work in video production (which is where I had been working before) with not a lot of luck so far. I’ve been freelancing the last 3 years so I’ve been out of the “workforce.” This was by choice. I’ve accrued a little debt after being debt free for so long and I need to take care of that. I need some stability in my life. But I want it now. I’ve only just started my job search in the last 2 weeks so what am I thinking? Magic that’s what I want. And I want it now.
I’ve been meditating daily and I sit up to 25 minutes. I honestly think 15 of it is trying to settle my brain so I can attempt to wash my thoughts clean. I don’t know if I’m feeling any effects from the meditation – I want to feel something now. I finally did 3 good fast walks this week instead of inconsistent exercise. I want my scale to show the clean eating & exercising I’ve been doing – now.
Wanting everything NOW doesn’t make it happen. It probably in fact pushes it away. I see my impatience as almost a form of self sabotage. And it hurts. It makes my stomach tighten and my thoughts go in circles. Why am I writing this? I don’t know. Maybe I won’t even publish this post. Maybe this is me trying to “out” myself in some way. Once you see something you say something. Exposing that which can be destructive. Because then you have a chance to do things another way. Even if I don’t know the way right now.
I wrote this post a month ago and “forgot” to post.
Hello there my friends. What a weekend this was in Las Vegas at the Arbonne GTC 2017! I’ve been an Arbonne Consultant for almost a year now – although I’ve been a very inconsistent one. But I wasn’t ready to quit and not going to GTC would be quitting.
There was a lot of learning and processing of information going on. Events like these can shine a light on things that are limiting your life. For me it’s my constant over thinking of things. Letting fear make decisions for me. Just something little like that. John O’Leary who wrote “On Fire” spoke at this event. He is an incredible speaker with an incredible story. I won’t go into it here – just look it up and read the book. He makes you look at yourself up close in a massive way – at least for me. My take-away – “I don’t want to leave this world without one bit of potential left in me”.
I don’t want to start this post by apologizing for being MIA but obviously I do. But really who am I apologizing to? Myself – that is the only one it affects right now. I’ve spent hours analyzing why I do what I do/don’t. But I was thinking today – I don’t want to be on my death bed (the cliche example) and say I wish I have worked harder at things. I can say that I know I don’t work hard enough at the things I say I want. Specially standup right now is my main focus. I need to write everyday even if it’s 30 minutes and I need to practice what I plan to do at a mic. I go up a lot with the idea and hope I’ll find my way. “And how is that working for you?” you ask. Not great – I can do a lot better. Prepare and produce. Not hold back. And if nothing else just move on to the next task. I spend way too much time analyzing and that can be a avoidance too of taking action. Understanding my behavior is all well and good. But do something with the answers or don’t bother analyzing.