I’ve been in complete resistance of going on Match dot com for the last 3 years. The reason now for joining it is because I’ve become too good at being single. I have come close to perfecting it.
I need to venture out into that scary world again. To feel something and to have that knock me off my feet a little. Whether the knock is good or bad it’s movement of some sort. I’ve come to the conclusion that the reason I’ve stayed out of the “dating” world is because I like to feel in control of my life. Especially of my emotions and disappointments. But I need to get back into the place that scares me the most. Opening up to someone and risking being hurt or more importantly risking being loved again.
I keep writing in my journal that I don’t know how to make a relationship happen. But that is bullshit since I know that to have anything change in this area means that I have to put out some energy that tells the Universe that I am open for this opportunity.
So Universe I’m open for business.