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I wrote this post a month ago and “forgot” to post.
Hello there my friends. What a weekend this was in Las Vegas at the Arbonne GTC 2017! I’ve been an Arbonne Consultant for almost a year now – although I’ve been a very inconsistent one. But I wasn’t ready to quit and not going to GTC would be quitting.
There was a lot of learning and processing of information going on. Events like these can shine a light on things that are limiting your life. For me it’s my constant over thinking of things. Letting fear make decisions for me. Just something little like that. John O’Leary who wrote “On Fire” spoke at this event. He is an incredible speaker with an incredible story. I won’t go into it here – just look it up and read the book. He makes you look at yourself up close in a massive way – at least for me. My take-away – “I don’t want to leave this world without one bit of potential left in me”.
I’ve been in complete resistance of going on Match dot com for the last 3 years. The reason now for joining it is because I’ve become too good at being single. I have come close to perfecting it.
I need to venture out into that scary world again. To feel something and to have that knock me off my feet a little. Whether the knock is good or bad it’s movement of some sort. I’ve come to the conclusion that the reason I’ve stayed out of the “dating” world is because I like to feel in control of my life. Especially of my emotions and disappointments. But I need to get back into the place that scares me the most. Opening up to someone and risking being hurt or more importantly risking being loved again.
I keep writing in my journal that I don’t know how to make a relationship happen. But that is bullshit since I know that to have anything change in this area means that I have to put out some energy that tells the Universe that I am open for this opportunity.
So Universe I’m open for business.
I used to love the idea of New Year Resolutions. It was a time to imagine all the good things I would be doing for myself and how awesome I would look or be by the end of the year. I can’t think of any resolutions I actually achieved. So that is why this year I’m working on only ONE resolution for the year which is – after each comedy open mic or show I’m going to make myself listen to my recorded set by the next day.
It’s super hard to listen to an open mic set. The idea is to work on new material or tighten up older material. New material brings lots of chances to bomb. Although bombing is what you should do. Or at the very least – not be afraid to bomb. A lot easier said then done. I have yet to learn to bomb gracefully. I know I need a thicker skin – I’ve heard that all my life. Although I like to think I have developed a tougher attitude – kind of.
I just looked at the last time I posted and I’m deeply embarrassed. Not that I have anyone really reading this yet but just for myself and what I would like to expect out of myself. The feeling is similar to when you are going out to dinner with a friend and they say “you don’t have to dress up” but yet you want to for you. Not for anyone else. You just want to feel good about yourself and your presentation to the world. I guess that is how I feel about not keeping the blog up. I’m not going to make excuses. I actually thought I had blogged at least once during the summer. But alas no. So let me renew my vows with myself. And pledge a once a week posting. Can I hear an AMEN!
So tonight I hosted my very first Laughing Buddha Comedy open mic at the Village Lantern. It was a lot of fun and it was a lot of work which surprised me. I had to pay attention to other things other than myself, my drink and my constant opinions and insecurities racing through my head.
There are a number of things that go into hosting a Laughing Buddha Comedy that look easier than they are. For starters keeping my eye on the stop watch so I can signal the comic that he or she has one minute left to wrap up their set. Then at 4:15 I’d stand up by the door for maybe 5 seconds before I walk towards the stage. It sucks to stop someone in the middle of their joke but blowing the light is a big No-No in comedy so really this is helping comics to learn to wrap it up with a quicker joke and not start a longer one.
This may sound silly now and hopefully even sillier a month from now. But I found it difficult to smoothly pull out two names from the bucket and then easily introduce the comic from the previous drawing. Not to mention pronouncing the name right. Even when Delance Minefee the first host tonight would give me the correct pronunciation I’d forget it because I was nervous. Of course like most people when I’m nervous I forget what I’m afraid of forgetting.
I have such respect for the comics that host the Laughing Buddha Comedy mics. They make it look easy.