I don’t want to start this post by apologizing for being MIA but obviously I do. But really who am I apologizing to? Myself – that is the only one it affects right now. I’ve spent hours analyzing why I do what I do/don’t. But I was thinking today – I don’t want to be on my death bed (the cliche example) and say I wish I have worked harder at things. I can say that I know I don’t work hard enough at the things I say I want. Specially standup right now is my main focus. I need to write everyday even if it’s 30 minutes and I need to practice what I plan to do at a mic. I go up a lot with the idea and hope I’ll find my way. “And how is that working for you?” you ask. Not great – I can do a lot better. Prepare and produce. Not hold back. And if nothing else just move on to the next task. I spend way too much time analyzing and that can be a avoidance too of taking action. Understanding my behavior is all well and good. But do something with the answers or don’t bother analyzing.